By Lorrie Kazan
Featured in Edge Life Magazine, March 2007
I used to think rich people were bad, selfish, something, not me, certainly not me anymore. We had money when I was little and then we lost it. But for many years we pretended to have it, lived in our same house, which was almost empty of furniture and often low on food.
When I got older, I thought I should live without extras, like underwear or paper towels. I didn’t want to be bourgeois. I had an image of myself as an artist. If cash poured in from writing books, well that would be a good thing, but how many literary authors earned that?
Finally, I hit bottom with being poor. I’d injured my wrists and could no longer work at jobs I hated, no more temping or typing for others. There’s not much you can do when you can’t use your hands.
Being a spiritual/metaphysically driven person, I believed what Edgar Cayce said:
• Use what’s been given and more will be added.
• If there were not a next step for you, you would not be on this earth.
In those bleak days of low funds, I’d sit on the bed where I was staying and imagine myself surrounded by stacks and stacks of money. Emerald green, as robust as the colors in nature, or the heart chakra. Sometimes they were 20s or 50s or 100s. I didn’t care about bank accounts. I just wanted to feel free, and ready cash was my oasis.
Yet I knew that the issue was larger and that I needed to create a life worth living. So I wrote affirmations, “Money comes to me from sources known and unknown. I am lavishly paid to do what I love.”
When you don’t have money, it seems like the answer. And if you’re going to be miserable, you might as well be comfortable.
I visualized — and in the face of no result, I visualized and affirmed some more. I prayed to be put in my right place, wherever that was. “Use me,” I prayed. I also said things like, “Save me or kill me, but don’t leave me like this.”
And lo and behold, circumstances finally changed and they began to conform to the visions I’d created. I was given a place to live near the ocean, and shortly thereafter I found a job as a professional psychic. I began to make a difference in ways I wouldn’t have known.
I still think of prosperity as living a life of freedom — freedom from nagging worries and doubts, from fear of financial insecurity. I’ve worked for famous people who seemingly had all the money, property and prestige anyone could hope for, and still it wasn’t enough.
There’s a saying that if it’s the wrong substance, one is too many and six is not enough. If my spiritual connection is strong, then I don’t end up falling into the same kinds of holes I used to. I have faith that money will come and that slow times lend themselves to regrouping.
Prosperity is having free time in nature, speaking my mind, having an inner connection. And yes, I still like money. And I know there is an abundance of it that is available to everyone.
Not being a linear person by nature, I use the spiritual principles for manifestation and now in my weekly Prosperity Newsletter I share them with readers. I even record the affirmations so people can download them and listen at their leisure.
My mind doesn’t automatically focus on its highest expression. And so I consciously instill words worth savoring. I also meditate and pray.
I connect with my true Source and surrender to it. And if I slip into fear, I re-focus again.
People, places and things are inevitably flawed. I prefer to put my faith in a higher power and then ask to be shown, to be used, to make a contribution on a daily basis.
Some days fit my pictures, and some days don’t. That’s the issue with this human dimension. We see parts and mistake it for the whole. But if I connect to Source, I connect to inspiration and intuition and that somehow guides me home.
